Dear Jen,

So as we went around to graves today for Memorial Day, I again felt pretty sorry for myself. It still is hard for me to believe sometimes you really are gone. After two years you would think I would not pick up the phone to call you without even thinking twice about it, and just thinking to myself, " Hey , I need to call Jen and tell her".. You know Sis , I really really miss you . I miss being able to talk to you and hearing your voice. I miss laughing with you till we'd cry. I miss your way of making me feel like I was someone special. There is not one day that goes by I dont' think of you and feel that ache in the pit of my stomach. I keep thinking that maybe it won't hurt so much but guess what , not yet. It is still there. I guess today has just been kind of a hard day for me and I needed to vent a little to something or someone. I know where you are and I truly feel you around me. I just wish you were here. I can not wait to see you again J, and I miss you like crazy. I'll have a Diet Coke and some cinnamon bears for you, because you can not tell me you don't miss those. I love you Sis T

What we will miss the most.....

God gave us MEMORIES so we can have TULIPS in December......

WHAT WE MISS THE MOST.....

Shopping Trips

Late Night talks with our Diet Coke and Cinnamon Bears

Jen's unforgetable comments...

Jen's contagious laugh

Her sense of Humor

Cards she'd send just to say "I love You"

Jen's Beautiful Smile

Giving her sister's style tips

How she smelt

Sunday Afternoons at Mom and Dad's

Her always having candy in her purse.... Whenever and Wherever

Borrowing clothes

St. George

Jen's hideous shoes

The way she drove...

Her way of always... Making someone smile!!!!

Till we meet again........

I will want to hold you in my arms and tell you how much I love you.


I will remember your beautiful smile, and how it would light up the room.


I will close my eyes and see you walking on your toes (no running).


I will cherish your many notes and cards.


By your example I will not judge others and love everyone.


I will remember the warmth that radiated from you.


Following you I will help others in any way I can.


Understanding everyone has strenghts and appreciate them for who they are.


Thank my Father in Heaven I was blessed with such a special sweet daughter.


Cherish our hours on the phone.


Miss our shopping trips.

Holidays will never be the same.

Remember the sunshine you brought in my life.


Drink diet cokes and eat treats in your honor


Want one more precious day with you.

Regret not spending more time with you.


Be proud that you are my daughter.

WE LOVE YOU MOMMY!!!!!!

ELLIE BROOKE

SKYLAR RYAN

MOTHER"S DAY

ELlie and Sky at Mom's grave - it looked so pretty....

Can Sky get any cuter than this?

Ellie and her Chocolate strawberries.... Need I say more....

This is Jaydo and Skybug hangin out--

This is Grandma Jackie with the kids!!

We went down to SLC and stayed a Little America for Mother's day this year. We got to take Jaydo and Sky and ELlie . We went to the Brunch on Sunday. The kids loved it. Ellie ate more crab than anyone there and we had to drag her out, I think she would of stayed all day. She absolutely loved the Chocolate Strawberries as you can see, it was hilarious watching her. The funny thing is is that is exactly what her mom would of went for the Crab, shrimp and strawberries. Sky was just mad they didn't have chips and fries, thats all he wanted. We then went up to J's grave and Mom and Dad had taken beautiful flowers up there the day before that were so pretty. It never gets easier going up there.... but it is something you can do for her. We miss you J ...

Your Heavenly Angel......

It's me, your Heavenly Angel just checking in with you.

I know your sad, because I'm gone and Jayden, Ellie and Skylar

- I'm sad too.

It's beautiful here, where I am-there's such a lovely view,

but mostly when I'm sitting here I'm looking down at you.

I see all of your feelings , happy and sad, everyday when I look down.

I love to see you smile and I know sometimes you frown.

I have a job to do...God saved it for your Mom,

I am one of the lucky ones, Every second I watch over you.

So though you cannot see me and I know it's hard on you.

Never forget I am always with you in everything you do...

Please remember that I love you and my spirit lives on

Stay close to our Heavenly Father and I am but a prayer away

I promise we will be together FOREVER... some day..

Love your Angel,

Mom

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Sometimes I am with Jen's kids and I wish I could tell them how much their Mom loved them and continues to love them. I can't even begin to put it into words. Jen adored her children. They were her whole world and more. I know she aches to be with them, to hold them in her arms and to tell them how much she misses them and could be with them. It is so hard to understand why she had to go and what would be more important than be here with them. Someday we will understand ..... I know without a doubt Jen lives on in her three beautiful children. I see it in Sky bugs eyes, Ellie's attitude and funny sense of humor and Jaydo's big Heart and unconditional love. I know Jen is close and her spirit is with us, I feel her so much expecially when I am with her sweet kids. Ellie was up last weekend with us and she slept over at my house. I went to tuck her in and she gave me a big hug and said " T.T. I love you so much, do you know why? I said Why Ell, and she said because you are the closest thing I have to my mommy and I really miss her. If I hug you , its almost hugging Mommy.. It broke my heart but at the same time I am so grateful I can be here for them and always help them remember how much their mom did and does love them. continues to love them....

Our Hero

Here Is a little video I made the day after Jen died. I guess it was a way of dealing with the loss, Its not the best! But I took every photo I could find of jenny.

"Sisters"

Time will never change the
"Love"
we feel as "Sisters".....

A few of my many Memories......

Three words come to mind when I think of this about Jen. Garments, poker and Meeker. I can’t remember the last time I saw J laugh that hard. This one stays between Mom and the girls!!!!!

We all teased Jen about her “Angel” perfume. She kept telling us that she could get us all some and no one had the guts to tell her we thought it stunk. But now I can’t get enough of that smell - I love it and miss the sweet way she smelt.


Jen had the most contagious laugh. Once she’d start her whole body would just shake and you couldn’t not help but laugh with her. She would get that little grin going and shrug her shoulders. She always said her body couldn’t stop laughing.


I remember in St. George one summer when Jen, Tara and I were in a condo with grandma Elaine. We had been up playing cards and Jen had fallen asleep on the couch. She started talking in her sleep and yelling about all her boyfriend problems and who knows what else. She had my grandma laughing so hard she peered her pants. And she never would ever believe us that she had been doing it.


Who dates two brothers at the SAME TIME? Enough said……..


Could anyone drive like Jen? Try following her to St. George. I think it took us about 3 hours longer because she was driving too slow. (about 45 the whole way) I can sure laugh now.

I remember having to switch pictures of Jen and her two boyfriends that were hanging on the wall. When one would come over I’d put her and that one up and then have to quickly change to the other picture before the other boy would come over. She had too many men for her own good.

A poem from Jen!!!!

To my dearest family, some things I’d like to say…
But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I’m writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above
Here there are no more tears of sadness, here is just eternal love

Please do not be unhappy just because I’m out of sight
Remember that I’m with you when my time on earth was through
God picked me up and hugged me and He said: “I welcome you.”

“It’s good to have you back again;
You were missed while you were gone:
As for your dear family, they’ll be here later on
I need you badly; you’re a part of my plan.
There’s so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man.”

God gave me a list of things that he wished for me to do
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day’s chores put to flight
God and I are closest to you… in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years
Because you’re only human, they are bound to bring you tears
But do not be afraid to cry, it does relieve the pain.
Remember: there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you, all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you would not understand
But one think is certain, though my life on earth is o’er
I’m closer to you now, than I ever was before;

There are many rocky roads ahead, and many hills to climb
But together we can do it by taking on day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I’d like it for you too….

So, if your meet somebody who is sad and feeling low;
Just lend a hand to pick them up, as on your way you go.
When you’re walking down the street, and you’ve got me on your mind
I am walking in your footsteps only a half a step behind
And when its time for you to go… from that body to be free
Remember that you’re not going… your coming home to me.

Jayden Jeffery Nyman

Okay so I had to write a little bit about my nephew Jayden. Wow is he a strong kid.
Here are some things that I know Jen looks down upon and is so proud of:

He is smart
He makes people laugh
Handsome isn't he?
Awesome at sports. (this kid is so good at basketball and football...Allstate eh?)
Strong testimony
Willing to still hug his aunts even if he doesn't want to
Willing to listen and take direction from his grandparents and dad
Such a good sport
Can make me smile by just walking in the room
Will pass a football with me even when I stink at a spiral
Tries hard at what he does
Is determined at what he does
Takes care of himself and his diabetes
Contagious laugh
So sweet to his brothers and sisters and nieces and nephews

a all around Awesome Kid. Jayden just wanted to let you know how much you are loved and adored. I see your mom in you so much. I love it and I know she does as well.
(I know you won't like this, but.... BIG HUG and KISS!!!!
haha made you red didn't I?)