Slipped Away

Jenny: I found this song. I loved it. Its kinda old, but it reminds me of you. and thinking of how much I miss you! I love you!

I miss you
Miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad.

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly.

The day you slipped away.....
Was the day i found
It, won't be the same
Oh

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't ooooooooooooh
I hope you can hear me
Cause I remember it clearly


The day you slipped away...
Was the day i found
It, won't be the same
Oh


I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why.
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by

Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere you're not coming back

I miss you.

Happy Birthday J!

Jen,

Another year has come and gone and it is your birthday again. I have so many emotions on this day. I was talking to mom and she said the same thing. Your birthday is one of the hardest days I think. It was your day.... it still is your day. I miss you more than words can express. Your kids are growing up so fast! I can't believe Jaydo is in 9th grade... and he is such a great kid. We love having him up with us and I am trying to atleast try and keep him safe. We just need to get rid of that stupid motorcycle. I will work on it!!! Ellie is such a sweetheart. Her and my girls have so much fun together. We were always so excited to be able to take them shopping, have sleepovers and all that fun girly stuff. She is an amazing little artist and has the funniest little giggle. And Sky is just our little bug. He is growing so big so fast. He says the funniest things and always has us laughing about something. I know you are such a big part of their lives and I dont' need to tell you any of this... but we sure wish you were here. My heart truly aches sometimes just to talk to you and laugh, and give you a big hug and tell you how much I love you. I hope you are well.... Stay close, would ya? I love ya sis and can't wait to see you again... Happy Birthday! I tried posting some pictures of the kids but my stupid computer wouldn't work. I will keep trying. I know that is what Jen would want on here!

Its that time of year...Again

I don't know why this time of year is so hard. After three years. When mothers day rolls around it feels like sometimes I lost you all over again. There are so many times when I just want to call you. There is never a day I don't think about you and there is never a day I don't miss you. There are times I feel you so strong and they are slowly going away year by year. Its hard because I just want to remember every second of you. I want to go back in time and just hug you one more time... I found all these notes you wrote me. You are amazing. I wish I could be like you. You would send me letters for no reason but just to let me know you loved me. I never appreciated them more then I do now. I miss you Jenny. With all my heart. I wish I could have told you more how much I love you and how you are my hero.
Haley

I miss you!! LOTS!

Jen.

I just wanted to express my feelings to you and this is the only way I know how to is on this blog! This season is always hard for me. I miss you more then words can express. You were christmas! A real santa! Always giving till it wasn't possible anymore. Its hard this time of year but especially for me... Trying to plan my wedding. A little girls dream and having to do it without you here is harder then I ever imagined. You would be with me every step of the way and help me make every decision. Its hard when I wake up and forget your gone. Even after 2 years it still hasn't fully hit me yet. I even picked up my phone to call you awhile ago. Even still! I miss you so much! And I know you are always with me. You are so amazing and we all miss you so much! Christmas will never be the same but your legacy lives on... I love you and miss you.

A few of your Favorite Things.....

Jiingles came last weekend at MOm's house, and here are all the kids reading a clue.
I think I remember Jen almost running as fast as the little ones to get to the suprise. SHe loved it! The kids had so much fun! THX mom.. we love you!





Sky- He loves having his picture taken. He cheeses it everytime! I luv it!




Princess Suga-Suga





Jayden was estatic! Can you tell?





Konner and SkyBug

Merry Christmas J!!

I had to put this picture of your blog J! It is Napili Beach right by the Gazebo! For some crazy reason I felt so close to you when I was here! I know you had been to that exact place, and it was your favorite! I wish so bad we could of been there together! It honestly brought tears to by eyes I missed you so much!
And this time of year is not easy either! You absolutley loved Christmas! I swear you would call me everyday about something! Our shopping trips, weekends at mom's with all the kids, Trying to figure out the best gift for mom and Dad, and just having an excuse to be together! I know it is a very hard time for Dad and Mom. I can tell their hearts are breaking missing you so much! We are doing some really fun things with the kids hopefully so we will try and keep the spirit alive because I know thats what you would want! I miss you J , more than you know! Tears come pretty easy now a days for some reason. I love you with all my heart! Merry Christmas and Cheers... Cherry O'letes and some Diet Coke!!!!

All the kids together!

Jen loved it when we all got together as a family. She would of loved to see all the kids together at mom's! SKy and Ellie had so much fun with their cousins. Grandma had so many fun things planned from scavenger hunts to pinatas to having light savor parties at night. They loved getting in the Jacuzzi with grandpa and all of their 4 wheeler rides. Here are a few pictures of the big event. J would of Loved it!

A little late!

So for J's birthday my kids and I have a tradition where we send off balloons and a each write a little note to her. This year the Oldroyd girls came and helped up celebrate. We went down to the party store and each picked out a balloon. We came back up to my house and let them go.

Although I am about a month late posting these I still thought they were blog worthy. Brooke is the camera women (the best in the world) and took these great shots. We were thinking we needed to somehow send up some diet coke but didn't know how. Don't worry J, next year we will figure out how, even if we have to buy a 100 balloons.

I love ya girl.

Happy Birthday Sis!!!

A Sister is life's special gift. She plays a loving part
in many lifelong memories that matter to the heart.
A sister is life's special gift, and there could never be
A better or more cherished one...
Than the sisters ..... Life gave to me.











Happy Birthday J!! I really really miss you. Even though we haven't had you here for already two birthdays I still thought to myself today.. I have got to call J. I wish I could talk to you and I would give anything to see you. I love you! Like Car and Hayes said, we will give you a cheer with our Diet Coke and cinnamon bears.
Love Always T

Beautiful Angel

The hole in my heart is bigger today. The lump in my throat will not go away. I am so blessed to have four beautiful, loving, kind, daughters.
Jen, I miss you more than words can describe. I have so many things I need to say to you. I miss your beautiful smile, your sense of humor, your kindness, your loving heart, your hugs.
I am grateful for the short time we spent together in this life. You were a wonderful daughter and a exceptional " mommy." Your beautiful children Jayden, Ellie and Skylar miss you. They all have some of your special traits. I love every moment I spend with them. They are a part of you. I know they have a beautiful angel watching
over them. I look forward to spending eternity with you.
Love Forever, Mom

Happy 36th birthday

Jen, all of the occasions that is celebrated, the most difficult for me is your birthday. This was always a very special day for you, it was your day. The memories this day brings, is full of joy because what you always brought to it, but it is the one day I miss you the most. Jen I miss you more than any word can express. Nothing in this world brought me more happiness than your sense of humor and your smile. You always could make me laugh. There is nothing I would not give or do, just to hold you again. Wherever you are, I want to be there. So many things about your life I took for granted, When I see you again I promise I will make up for it. I love you more than life. Your Dad

Happy Birthday Sissy!

Happy 36th birthday Jen!
I wish I could put into words how much I miss you.
Somedays I don't know how much longer I can go without seeing you!
You always knew how to put a smile on my face.

There are so many things around me
that constantly remind me of you. I want you to know how much

I miss you! I am so grateful for the example you were in my life.

I could never repay you for what you taught me and what
I constantly strive to be. Today has already started out kinda rough for me...

I want you here now as much as ever!
I could also really use a hug from jenny... or atleast see that beautiful smile of yours...
I love you with all my heart jenny, I look forward to the day I can see you again.
So until then. Im gonna go get some treats and celebrate your birthday!

Maybe get some cake. Diet Coke. Watch a Chick Flick!
I love you Jenny and I miss you more then anything.
Happy Birthday Sis!

Happy 36th Sis.....

Oh how I wish I could still one of those hugs today.
I love you and miss you dearly.

Hopefully you can find someway to grab a diet coke and
some cinnimon bears!!!

Jen's kids

I am going to try and post pictures and updates on Jen's kids on her blog every couple months. I know her kids were the most important thing in her life and I know she would like that. Jayden might be a little hard to do but I will try.

Sky- 3 years old

Sky's Favorite things:

Favorite Color - Green

Favorite thing to do - Play hoops and dunk it

Favorite song - The song from Cars (The movie)

Favorite ride at Disneyland - He has two, Jimmy and Monsters Inc.

Favorite food - Eberskeebers

Favorite movie - Bee movie and King Kong

Sky bug is the cutest thing ever! He always is trying to make someone laugh and entertain someone. He loves attention even if it takes running into a wall and hitting his head on purpose. He has Grandma and TT pretty fooled. He has been saying the funniest thing lately. He was laying in bed with my dad one night and asked grandpa where milk came from. Grandpa says " Sky, where do you think it comes from?"
"Da Fridge Grandpa", he says. He is so funny. We love ya bug!

Miss Ellie - 5 years old

A Few things about Ellie:

Favorite Color - Pink

Favorite Food - Cherries and Cake

Favorite Movie - Little Mermaid

Favorite thing to do - Ride Bikes

Favorite Song - Bless the Broken Road

Favorite Ride at Disneyland - Splash Mountain

If she had 5$ she would want a pet Bunny.

Ellie is growing up so fast! ALmost too fast! She is full of energy and loves to laugh! Her smile is so much like Jen's, it lights up a room. She is so good to check her blood and have her shots. She has been so brave! We are so proud of her. I am sure Jen is too! She is a beautiful little girl and we love her so much!

Whip Cream Anyone?

One summer night our family was at the Market Street in Salt Lake. Of course we had our kids with us which inturn we recieved some nice crusty looks from other diners. Anyway, Jen ordered the salmon. When it came out the first thing she did was take the dollop of sauce (which was tarter sauce) that was on top and spoon it to her mouth. While she was doing that, she said.....
"why did they put whip cream on my salmon?"
You can imagine her reaction when she realized she ate a spoonfull of tartar sauce instead of whip cream. I think I laughed so hard I almost peed my pants.

Sky's Dance

Skylar was at my house this last week and he was dancing around with Konner. I had to video him, it was so funny. He said it was his High School Musical Dance. And he even sticks in the worm too. I know Jen was absolutely loving watching him do this so I had to put in on her blog. It was Hilarious!

Sky Bug and Grandma

I had to post this picture of Sky and Grandma. This was taken last weekend at Britni's wedding dinner. Skylar put his arms around Grandma so fast!! He completely adores her... and I know Jen would be so grateful to mom for everything she does and continues to do for her children. Mom and Dad just took right over loving those kids when Jen was gone. I can't even imagine how grateful Jen is to them. Sky and Ellie and Jayden too, have bonded so strong with them through all of this. They have given up so much to help out but I know with out a doubt they don't even think twice about it. I feel so lucky to have my parents in our life and I don't know where any of us would be without them. So thank you Mom and Dad for everything you do. And I know Jen would feel the same way and would tell you the same thing if she was here. All of us are so blessed to have you in our lives and love you more than you know.

Dear Jen,

So as we went around to graves today for Memorial Day, I again felt pretty sorry for myself. It still is hard for me to believe sometimes you really are gone. After two years you would think I would not pick up the phone to call you without even thinking twice about it, and just thinking to myself, " Hey , I need to call Jen and tell her".. You know Sis , I really really miss you . I miss being able to talk to you and hearing your voice. I miss laughing with you till we'd cry. I miss your way of making me feel like I was someone special. There is not one day that goes by I dont' think of you and feel that ache in the pit of my stomach. I keep thinking that maybe it won't hurt so much but guess what , not yet. It is still there. I guess today has just been kind of a hard day for me and I needed to vent a little to something or someone. I know where you are and I truly feel you around me. I just wish you were here. I can not wait to see you again J, and I miss you like crazy. I'll have a Diet Coke and some cinnamon bears for you, because you can not tell me you don't miss those. I love you Sis T