Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Slipped Away

Jenny: I found this song. I loved it. Its kinda old, but it reminds me of you. and thinking of how much I miss you! I love you!

I miss you
Miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad.

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly.

The day you slipped away.....
Was the day i found
It, won't be the same

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't ooooooooooooh
I hope you can hear me
Cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away...
Was the day i found
It, won't be the same

I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why.
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by

Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere you're not coming back

I miss you.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Happy Birthday J!


Another year has come and gone and it is your birthday again. I have so many emotions on this day. I was talking to mom and she said the same thing. Your birthday is one of the hardest days I think. It was your day.... it still is your day. I miss you more than words can express. Your kids are growing up so fast! I can't believe Jaydo is in 9th grade... and he is such a great kid. We love having him up with us and I am trying to atleast try and keep him safe. We just need to get rid of that stupid motorcycle. I will work on it!!! Ellie is such a sweetheart. Her and my girls have so much fun together. We were always so excited to be able to take them shopping, have sleepovers and all that fun girly stuff. She is an amazing little artist and has the funniest little giggle. And Sky is just our little bug. He is growing so big so fast. He says the funniest things and always has us laughing about something. I know you are such a big part of their lives and I dont' need to tell you any of this... but we sure wish you were here. My heart truly aches sometimes just to talk to you and laugh, and give you a big hug and tell you how much I love you. I hope you are well.... Stay close, would ya? I love ya sis and can't wait to see you again... Happy Birthday! I tried posting some pictures of the kids but my stupid computer wouldn't work. I will keep trying. I know that is what Jen would want on here!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Its that time of year...Again

I don't know why this time of year is so hard. After three years. When mothers day rolls around it feels like sometimes I lost you all over again. There are so many times when I just want to call you. There is never a day I don't think about you and there is never a day I don't miss you. There are times I feel you so strong and they are slowly going away year by year. Its hard because I just want to remember every second of you. I want to go back in time and just hug you one more time... I found all these notes you wrote me. You are amazing. I wish I could be like you. You would send me letters for no reason but just to let me know you loved me. I never appreciated them more then I do now. I miss you Jenny. With all my heart. I wish I could have told you more how much I love you and how you are my hero.

Friday, December 19, 2008

I miss you!! LOTS!


I just wanted to express my feelings to you and this is the only way I know how to is on this blog! This season is always hard for me. I miss you more then words can express. You were christmas! A real santa! Always giving till it wasn't possible anymore. Its hard this time of year but especially for me... Trying to plan my wedding. A little girls dream and having to do it without you here is harder then I ever imagined. You would be with me every step of the way and help me make every decision. Its hard when I wake up and forget your gone. Even after 2 years it still hasn't fully hit me yet. I even picked up my phone to call you awhile ago. Even still! I miss you so much! And I know you are always with me. You are so amazing and we all miss you so much! Christmas will never be the same but your legacy lives on... I love you and miss you.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

A few of your Favorite Things.....

Jiingles came last weekend at MOm's house, and here are all the kids reading a clue.
I think I remember Jen almost running as fast as the little ones to get to the suprise. SHe loved it! The kids had so much fun! THX mom.. we love you!

Sky- He loves having his picture taken. He cheeses it everytime! I luv it!

Princess Suga-Suga

Jayden was estatic! Can you tell?

Konner and SkyBug

Friday, December 12, 2008

Merry Christmas J!!

I had to put this picture of your blog J! It is Napili Beach right by the Gazebo! For some crazy reason I felt so close to you when I was here! I know you had been to that exact place, and it was your favorite! I wish so bad we could of been there together! It honestly brought tears to by eyes I missed you so much!
And this time of year is not easy either! You absolutley loved Christmas! I swear you would call me everyday about something! Our shopping trips, weekends at mom's with all the kids, Trying to figure out the best gift for mom and Dad, and just having an excuse to be together! I know it is a very hard time for Dad and Mom. I can tell their hearts are breaking missing you so much! We are doing some really fun things with the kids hopefully so we will try and keep the spirit alive because I know thats what you would want! I miss you J , more than you know! Tears come pretty easy now a days for some reason. I love you with all my heart! Merry Christmas and Cheers... Cherry O'letes and some Diet Coke!!!!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

All the kids together!

Jen loved it when we all got together as a family. She would of loved to see all the kids together at mom's! SKy and Ellie had so much fun with their cousins. Grandma had so many fun things planned from scavenger hunts to pinatas to having light savor parties at night. They loved getting in the Jacuzzi with grandpa and all of their 4 wheeler rides. Here are a few pictures of the big event. J would of Loved it!