Friday, December 19, 2008

I miss you!! LOTS!


Jen.

I just wanted to express my feelings to you and this is the only way I know how to is on this blog! This season is always hard for me. I miss you more then words can express. You were christmas! A real santa! Always giving till it wasn't possible anymore. Its hard this time of year but especially for me... Trying to plan my wedding. A little girls dream and having to do it without you here is harder then I ever imagined. You would be with me every step of the way and help me make every decision. Its hard when I wake up and forget your gone. Even after 2 years it still hasn't fully hit me yet. I even picked up my phone to call you awhile ago. Even still! I miss you so much! And I know you are always with me. You are so amazing and we all miss you so much! Christmas will never be the same but your legacy lives on... I love you and miss you.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

A few of your Favorite Things.....



Jiingles came last weekend at MOm's house, and here are all the kids reading a clue.
I think I remember Jen almost running as fast as the little ones to get to the suprise. SHe loved it! The kids had so much fun! THX mom.. we love you!





Sky- He loves having his picture taken. He cheeses it everytime! I luv it!




Princess Suga-Suga





Jayden was estatic! Can you tell?





Konner and SkyBug

Friday, December 12, 2008

Merry Christmas J!!




I had to put this picture of your blog J! It is Napili Beach right by the Gazebo! For some crazy reason I felt so close to you when I was here! I know you had been to that exact place, and it was your favorite! I wish so bad we could of been there together! It honestly brought tears to by eyes I missed you so much!
And this time of year is not easy either! You absolutley loved Christmas! I swear you would call me everyday about something! Our shopping trips, weekends at mom's with all the kids, Trying to figure out the best gift for mom and Dad, and just having an excuse to be together! I know it is a very hard time for Dad and Mom. I can tell their hearts are breaking missing you so much! We are doing some really fun things with the kids hopefully so we will try and keep the spirit alive because I know thats what you would want! I miss you J , more than you know! Tears come pretty easy now a days for some reason. I love you with all my heart! Merry Christmas and Cheers... Cherry O'letes and some Diet Coke!!!!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

All the kids together!

Jen loved it when we all got together as a family. She would of loved to see all the kids together at mom's! SKy and Ellie had so much fun with their cousins. Grandma had so many fun things planned from scavenger hunts to pinatas to having light savor parties at night. They loved getting in the Jacuzzi with grandpa and all of their 4 wheeler rides. Here are a few pictures of the big event. J would of Loved it!



Friday, September 5, 2008

A little late!



So for J's birthday my kids and I have a tradition where we send off balloons and a each write a little note to her. This year the Oldroyd girls came and helped up celebrate. We went down to the party store and each picked out a balloon. We came back up to my house and let them go.

Although I am about a month late posting these I still thought they were blog worthy. Brooke is the camera women (the best in the world) and took these great shots. We were thinking we needed to somehow send up some diet coke but didn't know how. Don't worry J, next year we will figure out how, even if we have to buy a 100 balloons.

I love ya girl.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Happy Birthday Sis!!!




A Sister is life's special gift. She plays a loving part
in many lifelong memories that matter to the heart.
A sister is life's special gift, and there could never be
A better or more cherished one...
Than the sisters ..... Life gave to me.











Happy Birthday J!! I really really miss you. Even though we haven't had you here for already two birthdays I still thought to myself today.. I have got to call J. I wish I could talk to you and I would give anything to see you. I love you! Like Car and Hayes said, we will give you a cheer with our Diet Coke and cinnamon bears.
Love Always T

Beautiful Angel

The hole in my heart is bigger today. The lump in my throat will not go away. I am so blessed to have four beautiful, loving, kind, daughters.
Jen, I miss you more than words can describe. I have so many things I need to say to you. I miss your beautiful smile, your sense of humor, your kindness, your loving heart, your hugs.
I am grateful for the short time we spent together in this life. You were a wonderful daughter and a exceptional " mommy." Your beautiful children Jayden, Ellie and Skylar miss you. They all have some of your special traits. I love every moment I spend with them. They are a part of you. I know they have a beautiful angel watching
over them. I look forward to spending eternity with you.
Love Forever, Mom

Happy 36th birthday

Jen, all of the occasions that is celebrated, the most difficult for me is your birthday. This was always a very special day for you, it was your day. The memories this day brings, is full of joy because what you always brought to it, but it is the one day I miss you the most. Jen I miss you more than any word can express. Nothing in this world brought me more happiness than your sense of humor and your smile. You always could make me laugh. There is nothing I would not give or do, just to hold you again. Wherever you are, I want to be there. So many things about your life I took for granted, When I see you again I promise I will make up for it. I love you more than life. Your Dad

Happy Birthday Sissy!




Happy 36th birthday Jen!
I wish I could put into words how much I miss you.
Somedays I don't know how much longer I can go without seeing you!
You always knew how to put a smile on my face.
There are so many things around me
that constantly remind me of you. I want you to know how much
I miss you! I am so grateful for the example you were in my life.
I could never repay you for what you taught me and what
I constantly strive to be. Today has already started out kinda rough for me...
I want you here now as much as ever!
I could also really use a hug from jenny... or atleast see that beautiful smile of yours...
I love you with all my heart jenny, I look forward to the day I can see you again.
So until then. Im gonna go get some treats and celebrate your birthday!
Maybe get some cake. Diet Coke. Watch a Chick Flick!
I love you Jenny and I miss you more then anything.
Happy Birthday Sis!

Happy 36th Sis.....



Oh how I wish I could still one of those hugs today.
I love you and miss you dearly.

Hopefully you can find someway to grab a diet coke and
some cinnimon bears!!!

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Jen's kids

I am going to try and post pictures and updates on Jen's kids on her blog every couple months. I know her kids were the most important thing in her life and I know she would like that. Jayden might be a little hard to do but I will try.

Sky- 3 years old




Sky's Favorite things:

Favorite Color - Green

Favorite thing to do - Play hoops and dunk it

Favorite song - The song from Cars (The movie)

Favorite ride at Disneyland - He has two, Jimmy and Monsters Inc.

Favorite food - Eberskeebers

Favorite movie - Bee movie and King Kong

Sky bug is the cutest thing ever! He always is trying to make someone laugh and entertain someone. He loves attention even if it takes running into a wall and hitting his head on purpose. He has Grandma and TT pretty fooled. He has been saying the funniest thing lately. He was laying in bed with my dad one night and asked grandpa where milk came from. Grandpa says " Sky, where do you think it comes from?"
"Da Fridge Grandpa", he says. He is so funny. We love ya bug!

Miss Ellie - 5 years old





A Few things about Ellie:

Favorite Color - Pink

Favorite Food - Cherries and Cake

Favorite Movie - Little Mermaid

Favorite thing to do - Ride Bikes

Favorite Song - Bless the Broken Road

Favorite Ride at Disneyland - Splash Mountain

If she had 5$ she would want a pet Bunny.

Ellie is growing up so fast! ALmost too fast! She is full of energy and loves to laugh! Her smile is so much like Jen's, it lights up a room. She is so good to check her blood and have her shots. She has been so brave! We are so proud of her. I am sure Jen is too! She is a beautiful little girl and we love her so much!

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Whip Cream Anyone?


One summer night our family was at the Market Street in Salt Lake. Of course we had our kids with us which inturn we recieved some nice crusty looks from other diners. Anyway, Jen ordered the salmon. When it came out the first thing she did was take the dollop of sauce (which was tarter sauce) that was on top and spoon it to her mouth. While she was doing that, she said.....
"why did they put whip cream on my salmon?"
You can imagine her reaction when she realized she ate a spoonfull of tartar sauce instead of whip cream. I think I laughed so hard I almost peed my pants.

Friday, July 18, 2008

Sky's Dance



Skylar was at my house this last week and he was dancing around with Konner. I had to video him, it was so funny. He said it was his High School Musical Dance. And he even sticks in the worm too. I know Jen was absolutely loving watching him do this so I had to put in on her blog. It was Hilarious!

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Sky Bug and Grandma

I had to post this picture of Sky and Grandma. This was taken last weekend at Britni's wedding dinner. Skylar put his arms around Grandma so fast!! He completely adores her... and I know Jen would be so grateful to mom for everything she does and continues to do for her children. Mom and Dad just took right over loving those kids when Jen was gone. I can't even imagine how grateful Jen is to them. Sky and Ellie and Jayden too, have bonded so strong with them through all of this. They have given up so much to help out but I know with out a doubt they don't even think twice about it. I feel so lucky to have my parents in our life and I don't know where any of us would be without them. So thank you Mom and Dad for everything you do. And I know Jen would feel the same way and would tell you the same thing if she was here. All of us are so blessed to have you in our lives and love you more than you know.

Monday, May 26, 2008

Dear Jen,

So as we went around to graves today for Memorial Day, I again felt pretty sorry for myself. It still is hard for me to believe sometimes you really are gone. After two years you would think I would not pick up the phone to call you without even thinking twice about it, and just thinking to myself, " Hey , I need to call Jen and tell her".. You know Sis , I really really miss you . I miss being able to talk to you and hearing your voice. I miss laughing with you till we'd cry. I miss your way of making me feel like I was someone special. There is not one day that goes by I dont' think of you and feel that ache in the pit of my stomach. I keep thinking that maybe it won't hurt so much but guess what , not yet. It is still there. I guess today has just been kind of a hard day for me and I needed to vent a little to something or someone. I know where you are and I truly feel you around me. I just wish you were here. I can not wait to see you again J, and I miss you like crazy. I'll have a Diet Coke and some cinnamon bears for you, because you can not tell me you don't miss those. I love you Sis T

Sunday, May 18, 2008

What we will miss the most.....

God gave us MEMORIES so we can have TULIPS in December......


WHAT WE MISS THE MOST.....
Shopping Trips
Late Night talks with our Diet Coke and Cinnamon Bears
Jen's unforgetable comments...
Jen's contagious laugh
Her sense of Humor
Cards she'd send just to say "I love You"
Jen's Beautiful Smile
Giving her sister's style tips
How she smelt
Sunday Afternoons at Mom and Dad's
Her always having candy in her purse.... Whenever and Wherever
Borrowing clothes
St. George
Jen's hideous shoes
The way she drove...
Her way of always... Making someone smile!!!!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Till we meet again........



I will want to hold you in my arms and tell you how much I love you.


I will remember your beautiful smile, and how it would light up the room.


I will close my eyes and see you walking on your toes (no running).


I will cherish your many notes and cards.


By your example I will not judge others and love everyone.


I will remember the warmth that radiated from you.


Following you I will help others in any way I can.


Understanding everyone has strenghts and appreciate them for who they are.


Thank my Father in Heaven I was blessed with such a special sweet daughter.


Cherish our hours on the phone.


Miss our shopping trips.

Holidays will never be the same.

Remember the sunshine you brought in my life.


Drink diet cokes and eat treats in your honor


Want one more precious day with you.

Regret not spending more time with you.


Be proud that you are my daughter.



Monday, May 12, 2008

WE LOVE YOU MOMMY!!!!!!

ELLIE BROOKE

SKYLAR RYAN

MOTHER"S DAY

ELlie and Sky at Mom's grave - it looked so pretty....
Can Sky get any cuter than this?

Ellie and her Chocolate strawberries.... Need I say more....


This is Jaydo and Skybug hangin out--



This is Grandma Jackie with the kids!!
We went down to SLC and stayed a Little America for Mother's day this year. We got to take Jaydo and Sky and ELlie . We went to the Brunch on Sunday. The kids loved it. Ellie ate more crab than anyone there and we had to drag her out, I think she would of stayed all day. She absolutely loved the Chocolate Strawberries as you can see, it was hilarious watching her. The funny thing is is that is exactly what her mom would of went for the Crab, shrimp and strawberries. Sky was just mad they didn't have chips and fries, thats all he wanted. We then went up to J's grave and Mom and Dad had taken beautiful flowers up there the day before that were so pretty. It never gets easier going up there.... but it is something you can do for her. We miss you J ...

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Your Heavenly Angel......





It's me, your Heavenly Angel just checking in with you.
I know your sad, because I'm gone and Jayden, Ellie and Skylar
- I'm sad too.
It's beautiful here, where I am-there's such a lovely view,
but mostly when I'm sitting here I'm looking down at you.
I see all of your feelings , happy and sad, everyday when I look down.
I love to see you smile and I know sometimes you frown.
I have a job to do...God saved it for your Mom,
I am one of the lucky ones, Every second I watch over you.
So though you cannot see me and I know it's hard on you.
Never forget I am always with you in everything you do...

Please remember that I love you and my spirit lives on
Stay close to our Heavenly Father and I am but a prayer away
I promise we will be together FOREVER... some day..
Love your Angel,
Mom
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Sometimes I am with Jen's kids and I wish I could tell them how much their Mom loved them and continues to love them. I can't even begin to put it into words. Jen adored her children. They were her whole world and more. I know she aches to be with them, to hold them in her arms and to tell them how much she misses them and could be with them. It is so hard to understand why she had to go and what would be more important than be here with them. Someday we will understand ..... I know without a doubt Jen lives on in her three beautiful children. I see it in Sky bugs eyes, Ellie's attitude and funny sense of humor and Jaydo's big Heart and unconditional love. I know Jen is close and her spirit is with us, I feel her so much expecially when I am with her sweet kids. Ellie was up last weekend with us and she slept over at my house. I went to tuck her in and she gave me a big hug and said " T.T. I love you so much, do you know why? I said Why Ell, and she said because you are the closest thing I have to my mommy and I really miss her. If I hug you , its almost hugging Mommy.. It broke my heart but at the same time I am so grateful I can be here for them and always help them remember how much their mom did and does love them. continues to love them....

Friday, May 2, 2008

Our Hero

Here Is a little video I made the day after Jen died. I guess it was a way of dealing with the loss, Its not the best! But I took every photo I could find of jenny.

Thursday, May 1, 2008

"Sisters"

Time will never change the
"Love"
we feel as "Sisters".....

A few of my many Memories......

Three words come to mind when I think of this about Jen. Garments, poker and Meeker. I can’t remember the last time I saw J laugh that hard. This one stays between Mom and the girls!!!!!

We all teased Jen about her “Angel” perfume. She kept telling us that she could get us all some and no one had the guts to tell her we thought it stunk. But now I can’t get enough of that smell - I love it and miss the sweet way she smelt.


Jen had the most contagious laugh. Once she’d start her whole body would just shake and you couldn’t not help but laugh with her. She would get that little grin going and shrug her shoulders. She always said her body couldn’t stop laughing.


I remember in St. George one summer when Jen, Tara and I were in a condo with grandma Elaine. We had been up playing cards and Jen had fallen asleep on the couch. She started talking in her sleep and yelling about all her boyfriend problems and who knows what else. She had my grandma laughing so hard she peered her pants. And she never would ever believe us that she had been doing it.


Who dates two brothers at the SAME TIME? Enough said……..


Could anyone drive like Jen? Try following her to St. George. I think it took us about 3 hours longer because she was driving too slow. (about 45 the whole way) I can sure laugh now.


I remember having to switch pictures of Jen and her two boyfriends that were hanging on the wall. When one would come over I’d put her and that one up and then have to quickly change to the other picture before the other boy would come over. She had too many men for her own good.

A poem from Jen!!!!

To my dearest family, some things I’d like to say…
But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I’m writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above
Here there are no more tears of sadness, here is just eternal love

Please do not be unhappy just because I’m out of sight
Remember that I’m with you when my time on earth was through
God picked me up and hugged me and He said: “I welcome you.”

“It’s good to have you back again;
You were missed while you were gone:
As for your dear family, they’ll be here later on
I need you badly; you’re a part of my plan.
There’s so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man.”

God gave me a list of things that he wished for me to do
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day’s chores put to flight
God and I are closest to you… in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years
Because you’re only human, they are bound to bring you tears
But do not be afraid to cry, it does relieve the pain.
Remember: there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you, all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you would not understand
But one think is certain, though my life on earth is o’er
I’m closer to you now, than I ever was before;

There are many rocky roads ahead, and many hills to climb
But together we can do it by taking on day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I’d like it for you too….

So, if your meet somebody who is sad and feeling low;
Just lend a hand to pick them up, as on your way you go.
When you’re walking down the street, and you’ve got me on your mind
I am walking in your footsteps only a half a step behind
And when its time for you to go… from that body to be free
Remember that you’re not going… your coming home to me.

Jayden Jeffery Nyman


Okay so I had to write a little bit about my nephew Jayden. Wow is he a strong kid.
Here are some things that I know Jen looks down upon and is so proud of:

He is smart
He makes people laugh
Handsome isn't he?
Awesome at sports. (this kid is so good at basketball and football...Allstate eh?)
Strong testimony
Willing to still hug his aunts even if he doesn't want to
Willing to listen and take direction from his grandparents and dad
Such a good sport
Can make me smile by just walking in the room
Will pass a football with me even when I stink at a spiral
Tries hard at what he does
Is determined at what he does
Takes care of himself and his diabetes
Contagious laugh
So sweet to his brothers and sisters and nieces and nephews

a all around Awesome Kid. Jayden just wanted to let you know how much you are loved and adored. I see your mom in you so much. I love it and I know she does as well.
(I know you won't like this, but.... BIG HUG and KISS!!!!
haha made you red didn't I?)

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

So Beautiful!!!!



Here are a few of my most favorite pictures of J. She was "So Beautiful"... These are on my fridge so I look at them everyday. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her and miss her. Like Carly and Haley, I can't believe it has been 2 years. It feels like forever since I have seen her or heard her voice. What you would give for "One More Day".... She had the biggest heart of anyone I knew. She constantly was thinking of others before herself. Sending little notes and gifts just to say she loved you. One time she told my kids to call her "Aunt Santa" , we just laughed. You never knew when something was going to show up on your porch. My kids adored her. And still to this day Halle asks " Mom, when is Jesus going to bring Aunt Jenny back? I really miss her. Tell him to hurry up." I am trying Halle, I wish he'd hurry too. I miss her terribly and not a day goes by I don't think about her. Love you J
T

Monday, April 28, 2008

My Sunshine



You are my sunshine

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skies are grey. You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away
The other night, dear,
As I lay sleeping

I dreamed I held you in my arms.

When I awoke, dear,
I was mistaken And I hung my head and cried.
You are my sunshine,

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skys are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away.

Please don't take my sunshine away.
When Jen was in Tawian I used to sing this to her. She would cry. Now this song has more meaning then any other song in the world.
.Haley.

Haleys post- Our beautiful sister.



Wow. Such a hard time of year. I never really realized how long and hard this journey was. Not a day goes by that I don't think about my beautiful sister! I really miss her a lot. It is a tough time right around this time of year. I can't believe it will be 2 years here soon. I wish I could express how much I miss her but I can't put it into words. I have all these memories that are slowly slipping away from me which is making losing her that much worse!

* Everyone has heard the bird story of course. When she saw soe type of bird and turned to ryan asking him if that type of bird was extinct.

* When Lords of the rings first came out Ryan and I were talking about how much we loved the characters and story line. I think Jen felt a little left out so from the back she said "Don't you wanna hear my thoughts on Droadora and frotamire."

* She loved it when I styled her hair. What can I say I am amazing. I would spend hours curling her hair and she would love it. Then I would get calls saying she hated me not there because her hair never turned out how I did it. She always made me feel special. Like I was one of a kind.

* What I love the most is when my dad and mom will look at me and say wow you look like jenny or you laugh just like jenny. Nothing could make me more happy then a compliment like that! She is the most amazing person and I am honored.

*This is also a funny little story... I was tending Brylee last year. We were having a princess sleep over. I went to pick her up and she was asking about jesus and how you can talk to him. I told her she didn't need a cell phone to talk to jesus she just needed to pray. A couple minutes later she was playing with my phone and this is what I hear.

"Oh hello jesus"

"Oh yeah? Really" What are you doing" Oh fun" I miss you" Bye"

I was trying not to laugh as I turned around and asked her what she was doing.

"Oh I just got off the phone with jesus he is playing golf with jenny then they are going to watcha movie." I love being around all my nieces and nephews. They are so close to the spirit and so amazing to be around. Nothing touched me more then konner my 7 year old nephew at the time hug me and tell me I will see jenny again.


Sunday, April 27, 2008

Jen's Beautiful Kids!!!!

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Here are some recent pics we have taken of Jen's kids. Ellie is decorating her mom's grave, she knew that is what her mom would want.

Each one of Jens kids have some special thing about them that resembles their mom. Sky bugs big beautiful eyes, Ells blonde hair and contagious smile and Jaydens funny sense of humor along with his big heart. They are a constant reminder of their mother and we are so blessed to have them in our lives. I feel so close to Jen when I am around her children. I know without a doubt she is their "Angel" and I know she would be so proud of who they are and misses them more than they will ever know!!!